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10 Jun 2023

Update: being sick, VR, etc.

Thanks to the valiant efforts of pencilvoid it has come to my attention that there is a Neocities CLI, making the last poignant statement from the previous post null and void. Hooray! I hope.

Thought I'd take this moment to write a personal blog post while I still have the chance (I always will, I just like imposing needless boundaries on myself). I received my Hulk Kid sticker today. If you don't know what that is, that's okay, just look up "Hulk_Kid _Offical page" on YouTube and you will be wise enough. I'm still looking for places to stick it on. I don't own a laptop and the amount of flat surfaces in my house that I'm willing to put stickers on is surprisingly small. It is okay, though. The sticker will find a home soon and all will be well.

Recently, and I'm sure this has been obvious from my whining in the last post, I have fallen ill. With what? I don't know! Probably a common cold. I don't usually fall sick, I think it's been at least eleven months since I last caught anything, and I was originally quite anxious as I thought I might have just gotten COVID. I didn't, though. It is definitely not COVID. Symptoms started on a Saturday where I had to miss a big parade because I was having a headache, stomachache, and cramps all over my body. I couldn't even afford to stand. That fucking sucked. Fortunately, the day after, the peril had appeared to have all but disappeared, and in its place came an extremely painfully sore throat. That also passed after four to five days, and now I find myself having the worst symptom of them all: I can't taste nor smell anything. In place of it is a very specific taste/smell that is both unpleasant and nostalgic... the reason for that being, it was also all I could taste during Summer vacation last year, and seeing as I was, indeed, on a vacation, of which has become a core memory of mine, I now associate this taste and this smell with that vacation, which results in faint feelings of nostalgia on my part whenever I smell that smell or taste that taste. But I'm sure it'll wear off after a while.

I've got to say, this fucking sucks. I can tolerate not being able to smell but not being able to taste? Or, at least, only being able to taste a single unpleasant... thing inside my mouth every five seconds? No. Hell no. I hope this will be over soon but right now it's shown no visible signs of getting better.

Times like these I find myself sitting down and listening to The Field. I consider it comfort music because it has this genuine ability to calm me down and give me a feeling of serenity. It's really quite magical. I associate it with a kind of bliss I get with... VR software. Okay, bear with me. Around the time I got my Oculus Quest (I refuse to call it a Meta Quest), VR software – not really so much hardware – was still in its infancy. A lot of shit was still changing and being swapped around, and young pre-teen me got to experience all of it. Nowadays going into something like Wolvic and just looking at the environments evokes a very specific kind of peacefulness. I'm not being bombarded by guns and cars or whatever. In the case of Firefox Browser (which Wolvic is forked off of) they had a default environment that was these sandy polygonal dunes— it's still my favorite out of all the places I've been to in VR and it sucks because I don't know how to import it in Wolvic, because: 1. the process of importing them is weird and I don't feel like doing it, and 2. the image files for the skybox are nowhere that my stupid ass can find. I'll track them down eventually. The default environment for Wolvic is similarly calming in some regards. The same goes for many of the default 3D environments that come with the Oculus Quest home. It's just... all really fucking peaceful and serene, it's beautiful. If this was all I could do in VR I would be perfectly fine with it, because for some reason, these tiny little 2D/3D images that I can look around in give me such a potent feeling of... something, that I can't get anywhere else, and it's ridiculously hard to explain, but it's incredibly calming.

My Quest 1 is showing its age. It is very old at this point and while it still works well and runs the software it's able to run it is starting to fade away due to support being dropped long ago (I, unfortunately, can no longer play Rec Room). I'm still waiting for the Quest 3 which will be a while... so for now I find myself rarely getting on my headset, but when I do, I play singleplayer shit like Virtuoso, Sports Mode, or Job Simulator... and it gives off a very specific kind of loneliness, but one that I find quite peaceful (most of the time). I intend to get TribeXR eventually, as I have for YEARS (my money has ultimately always gone towards other things at the last moment), but it's entirely possible I can't now because basically every piece of software is ending support for the Quest 1 at this point. I've always wanted to DJ, it's been a large passion of mine as I've always been musically inclined in every area that I could possibly be musically inclined. Things will go wherever they go, but for now I'm having as much fun I can have on this bulky piece of shit. I love it for what it is.

Written on Sat, 10 Jun 2023 00:00:00 -0400